Alright, how many of you have been to a Bible study? Did you like it? I was involved with Bible studies from 1995 until 3 years ago. I haven’t been to church except maybe 3 times in the past 3 years. Why?
Well, I just don’t want me or my family to get hurt again or get in the wrong frame of mind. ”Get in the wrong frame of mind”? How can you get in the wrong frame of mind by going to church? Very easily. For some reason people look at “Christians” and put them on a pedestal. They try to stay away from them or apologize for being who they are around them or think they are hypocrites. We are judged from the outside looking in and then the inside judges the outside that doesn’t come in.
I was faithfully involved in church since I rededicated my life to Christ back in 1996. I was 26 years old and in a country with no family around and basically doing it as a single parent since my husband was deployed. I had the friendship of many women and we came together to help each other get through the rough times and just get to the commissary to do our shopping in peace. I became a study of one of the Chaplain’s wife’s there in Germany and began memorizing verses and studying the scriptures. I didn’t debate but I wanted to know why and really studied each verse, trying to understand. Does it apply to me now or was that then.
I have written many notes on this subject and I do love the Lord deeply but I have become what some might call a backslider or some might call unsaved or to explain it to themselves, they might think I have never been saved. I have been so deeply involved in church that being around the top, I didn’t agree with attitudes and didn’t understand how some could be think and speak the way they did, yet be leaders. So easily, I started thinking like I was observing. I would look at others and think, “They are doing that because they aren’t saved.”
I am here to say that NO ONE knows if a person is saved or not, it is between the Lord and that person. Sure the Word says that you will know them from their fruit but we will be studying this half baked world and what the Bible says about it from here on out. If you would like to join in the discussion, then please do it with a right heart. There is no room for judgment, for arguing or just being ugly. If you want to get your view across remember it is in the way you present it.
I started this blog wanting it to be a place about Christian Women and the half baked world. I am a Christian and women of the half baked world always came to me and thought I was different and wanted what I had. Some didn’t understand me and really called me a fruitcake, seriously! I embraced it and wanted to make the name into something positive. So, it became Diaries of a Fruitcake in a half baked world. After I started getting this design and site going, I search the word “fruitcake” and saw that a lot of people compared the name “fruitcake” with homosexuals! What?!
A lot of people always came to me back then before I entered seclusion, so I thought I would make it like a Dear Abby column. That part will still be there because, well, I can’t change it. The bill is paid for the site and I have what I have. So, if you want any advice from me or others, you can put it on the form and be anonymous. Plus it might just help someone else out there going through the same thing.
The Diaries will be about what I am going through and what others, who write in, are going through that are stories. Dear Thea will be any questions that come to my email and any advice I can give or ask the public to help out. The half baked section will be about just that, the world that doesn’t understand the saving Grace of Christ and why Christians act the way they do. We will look at the half baked world and pray! It won’t be an area to come and gossip.
I am on a journey now in my life that at 39 years old, I don’t want to stay away any longer. I realize I have let offenses cripple me. Not any longer! I have stayed away because I have not wanted the judgement of others to affect my family. I have wanted to protect them. I have been blessed in my life, personal and business, and guess what? I haven’t been going to church. That goes against all the teachings I have been given but you know what? It goes to show that the reason I have stayed away, the Lord has mourned with me and taught me to keep moving forward. I have learned many valuable lessons staying home at this time. I am not sorry for it and I would hope that no one would judge me for it. I am coming back to have fellowship, hoping that my family will be fine. There is no room in the body of Christ to hurt anyone, Christian or Non-Christian.
My poor Grandparents have worried about my family and kept asking if we are going to church. I am going…tomorrow evening to a women’s Bible study. I am ready and believe I am stronger to be around others who might have judgmental views and wanting to let me know I have lived in sin since I wasn’t in church. Read that again…I said, “others who might have..”. Am I going to church with the frame of mind that I am ready to fight? No. I am going with an excitement to learn something that the Lord has for me. He knows I am going. To open my Bible that has had dust on it and just be with the fellowship of others. Others that I do not know.
I know that there are many hurting Christians out there that have been hurt by other Christians. Hopefully this site will help be an outlet to not be secluded for long, like I was. Three years! A place to heal and understand or just be understood.
So, embrace this site and enter into the Diaries of this fruitcake and see what has to be said about our half baked world!
